Purpose? Passion?

When I start a new post for my blog, I just let my thoughts and feelings flow out onto the screen. Then I go back and organize my thoughts to make sure it's easy to follow and makes sense. But, the other thing it allows me to do is truly process my thoughts, and sometimes I'm able to figure out what my issue is. When I started writing this post, it was because I was feeling lost and questioning my purpose. After a long and stressful week with work and feeling lost with my health and fitness program, by Saturday I felt like shit mentally, emotionally, and even physically. And I asked myself, why am I doing this? What's my purpose?

Yesterday I had an opportunity to chat with a friend and the best advice I received was, "Do this for yourself and let others make their own minds up....they have the same opportunity as you do....the decision is to act or not act. You don't always have to be the nice person....let others find their way."

After that great advice and processing all my thoughts, I came to a couple conclusions and figured out part of my issue. First, it's not about purpose, but focusing on my passion. And second, not being the nice person all the time isn't a bad thing. Now, I know my friend who gave me this advice wasn't saying to disregard others needs, or that it's okay to be a bitch; but that it's okay to not always be the one who misses out on opportunities to let others have them. I can still be supportive and encouraging without always being the "nice one", because as he said, "the decision is to act or not act."

So, what does all this mean for me? Well, I'm still working through some of my thoughts and feelings. But something I realized, is that because I tend to step back and let others take advantage of the limited opportunities, that I sit back and start feeling like I'm missing out on something great. In reality, WE ALL (including ME) deserve that same opportunity. And one thing I know for sure is I will no longer be sitting on the sidelines encouraging others.  I'll be smack dab in the middle of every opportunity I can take in life, and then they can decide where they want to be on the playing field. Do they want to sit on the sidelines, or do they want to be by my side kicking ass in life as well? Whatever they decide, I'll always support and encourage anyone who is on my team, but I'll just no longer be doing it from the sidelines. Especially since I have such a strong passion for health and fitness, I want to be a leader for others, and the only way to be an effective and great leader is to strive to always be in front.

Lesson I'm taking away from this, is by focusing on my passions, I'll always find my purpose!